The Day In The Life Of A Dancer

So according to Miss Kaitlyn I do not post anymor which is very true but I think I will start again lol maybe it will give me something to do lol. I can't promise that I will do it every day or every other day but maybe I can shoot for once a week? well let's see this weekend me and the boy went and played pool with carissa and her boy and some fun new people. it was exciting lol i suck at pool but we made it fun lol. then we headed off to the diner for some much needed catch up time with one another. then it was late so we parted and went different ways. On saturday i had wonderful dance team practice from 9 to 1 and then I babysat from 5pm to 1am. I was fine babysitting and then my mom called and told me there was rapist in downtown shelton and he had just robbed one of the houses a few streets away. That scared the F***K out of me lol. But I was fine I just stayed on the phone while the kid slept lol. Then on Sunday I did some homework and went to the mall with stephie for a while and then I had dinner with my mom. Then we watched our reality shows together because were losers like that. But if you don't like it then oh well because I love my mama lol. Well I hope this week at school is better but I'm doubting it since I slept through my first class. Oops! lol well I'm off to study for a math test. later much.

Run down for the week....
Monday~school 8-1.....sleeeeep
Tuesday~school 930-11....field work
Wednesday~school 8-1....DT practice 730-10
Thursday~school 930-11...dinner with the boys
Friday~school 12-1...ice skating!!!

(throw in babysitting and lunch with steph in there somewhere lol)

ya wanna hang out? give me a call!!! much love <333

i have now had my drivers license for a week and two days.....and i absultely love it!!! college has been great so far...i haven't lost touch with too many people, ive made some really cool friends at school, and met some really great people it rocks. i wish i got a dorm room htis semester because it would've made college so much better. next semester i', requesting a suite with carissa and steph. how much fun is that going to be to live together! i am super excited about it. lol i can't wait! i love my classes they are really cool and most of my professors seem real chill. i love it. today the power went out in all the buildings except the housing buildings. it was awesome alot of people got out of class early because of it so i got to spend sometime with steph. which was totally needed because i have been an emotional wreck lately. there are days that i'll be driving and just start tearing for no reason. i think its because i like you and you don't even know i exist i also miss you so much i don't know how to express it. i'm too afraid to call you. you always call me first. you make me feel the way noone else can. i love it. i've loved becoming amazing friends and wouldn't change what we've got now for nothing less. i miss you and cant wait for the phone to ring and it just be you on the other line. tomorrow is my mommy's birthday i'm excited. i can't wait for a break yet where everyone comes home from school, and i'll get to see you all. i'm super excited for that! thats about it i just wish you would make a move and let me know how your feeling because i really care about you and wish u would see that, but whatever things happen. i'm going to write letters to my girls...if you want one leave your address in a comment and i'll write you one as soon as i can. love you all!!! <3

I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

To all of you that thought it couldn't be done. I finally did it lol
Thank you to all of you who believed in me!!!
But thank you to that special person who spent an hour on the phone studying with me!!!
It helped so much!!!!!!!!

That's all I've got right now! More to come later lol

So LJ I'm back....sorry ive been gone so long i just didn't update this summer. well lets see today was my first college day. i had three classes 8-11. i absolutely love school. my teachers seem cool theres a lot of people in my classes so far, and as of today i love it. tomorrow i have the other two classes im taking thus semester. im excited. at first i was really nervous about this whole college thing, and now i love it. i just wish i had someone to share it with. ive finally realized im over nick and totally moving on. i just wish the person i wanted to notice me would wake up and see im there. i dont know i just have all these feelings, but whatever i'll just wait. but im excited college is fun even if half of shelton high school goes there lol. i already made two new friends. one from hamden and another from derby but they're great people. i really miss some of my shelton girls though. someone said something to me today and it totally reminded me of cyndi i almost cried because i miss her so much. but thats ok im ready for college and i can't wait to tackle the challenge lol.

SHS Class of 2006 we have finally done it, and I can't believe it. 

i can't believe we're graduates it hasn't actually sunk in yet and i don't exactly kno when it will i wish it would happen soon, but at the same time i don't want high school to be totally over to know i will never being going back to that building is kind of a shock. i don't know why, but i think it's because i'm afraid of change and losing everyone i have come so close to over the past three years. i hope everyone will keep in touch and call and email as well just IM me i don't plan on changing my screen name anytime soon (teenietapgurl127).

so i went to make my schedule at southern yesterday and i hate it...i'm not a morning person and my classes start at 8am...i guess the advisor didn't care i wasn't a morning girl...also if i need two semesters of french why am i not taking at all my first semester...i need need need to fix my schedule....it got worse lol then i went to take my ID pic and i look like i'm drugged lol but then i accidently bumped in to kim witiak and we had great old time running around campus together and then she asked me a crazy question if steph and i wanted to get a suite with her and jess young strangely it sounds like fun..but steph and i have to talk about it first

summer so far has been good and hopefully it can only get better from here...

summer '06
the days have just begun

I just got home from my first and last pom pon girl banquet. It was amazing and heart breaking. The evening started off with everyone coming in and saying hi and wondering where katie was and then she showed up an hour late because she thought it started at 6 and it was definitely 5 lol. we all applauded when she came in. it was great. lol love ya pope. then we read the senior info program and omg i got teary eyed i couldn't believe it lol. then we had dinner and yeah that was fine. then stine and cheryl did the senior awards and yea they were funny and no one cried. then the captains said goodbye to each other and they cried. then DK came down and gave a lil snip about each senior and gave us our letters. but god she gave me the longest bit it was sooo nice and thats when i started to lose it. we all got our letters and bars and then laughed when keller forgot cait iannucci lol. then the senior moms gave us our gift we got bears dressed as pom pon girls. they were sooooo cute we loved them. the juniors wrote us each a poem about leaving and thats when we all totally lost it and began sobbing and hugging and it finally just sunk in that we're leaving. it was really bad. then we had dessert and everyone settled down. then we watched the senior slide show and just lost it again which ended in an enormous senior girl hug it was the best. thats where the night ended. we ll stole the balloons with ou senior name on it and then went out in the parking lot and cried some more. It was bad but I loved it at the same time. I can't wait till senior banquet thats going to be another emotional time for me.

So overall this weekend was pretty amazing. I have an amazing kid who I love, my friends are the best, and being a ppg made my senior year.

6/3/06 <3

what a night!!! <3

This week has been decent I've actually had a lot of fun with certain dance people and I have had so much fun with my shelton gals I hate it to end. Well now to the point of this update. I went up to southern today with kimmy and jess and we tried out to be on southerns dance team. and WE MADE IT!!!!!!! It's so exciting...then we went and ate so much food at friendly's to celebrate. lol. well its been a good day but i've got stuff to do. I'll see everyone monday!!!

So I haven't done a surevey in a while and decided since my ipod is almost full it was time to do one of these....I realized I really need to stop listening to so much broadway lol


till later days....

Yes I know I haven't posted in ages. I just haven't wanted to because I think by posting here it would mean that I would have to face all my problems again and I didn't want to. Well since everything has been building up it's time to let some of it out. First let's talk about school. It's taken me seven months but I haven finally discovered who my true friends are, and I really do appreciate all you guys do for me and when you're there to talk and just be a friend. I've worked through accepting my best friend since kindergarten has moved to Missouri and sometimes I miss her so much I don't know what to do, but let it out the only way I know how. Not telling anyone and just keeping it all inside. I also hate how I try to be a nice person and do things for others and the only thing that happens to me is I get screwed over again and again. That's when I miss my friend the most. I also hate myself sometimes and wish I could change I can't tell people off sometimes because I just can't find the words to say, and it's horrible. Well whatever that's high school for you I think my worst problem isn't my friends at shs it's the lmda group at dance. Let's see this year would've been perfect if that one person hadn't come alone and caused so much shit between us all. If it was jusy kay, lilkay, forni, mica, me, melissa, and gin in the senior group we would've been totally fine. She has caused so much drama she turned gin a fourteen year old into a little her which isn't a good thing at all. Lil kay wouldn't worship the ground she walked on and actually might have a good romodel if she had just stayed away. kay wouldn't be as unhappy as she is same with forni. then meliss and i wouldn't have to listen to her complain and about her life that isn't normal. oh and mica wouldn't of ever sprained her ankle and been out the entire season. if she had just backed off being nineteen years old going on twenty and stopped hanging out with high schoolers she would actually have a life. Also the main thing is our group would be happy and actually be able to hang out all together without fighting. I just hate how my entire senior year at lmda was ruined because she doesn't have her priorities straight. And my problem is I can't tell her to her face. But when she did what she did kay I backed kay up a hundred percent because kay and i have danced together for five years and have become close. I just hate how she ruined everything, and she just doesn't get it, but whatever the seasons almost over and I'm going to college next year and like normal nineteen year old I will NOT be competing with lmda. I will miss my girls so much tho and will be back to visit I promise plus I'm going to work for claudia so I'll be drivnig her kids there everyday lol. haha nicholas I kno ur jealous lol. Wow that fekt goos sorry I don't know if this makes any sense but it felt good to put it out there. Well HAPPY SPRING BREAK!!! (i'm gonna spend mine searching for a prom date hopefully lol)

Laters call me during the week with plans
~Jess

I got wait listed at salve regina. Damn that was my top choice until last week lol. I then decided i didn't want to leave connecticut because the state offered to pay for my masters. I don't know exactly why, but hey thats cool. Nothing else has really been happening. Poms is the same. Dance is just dance I don't want to go into that drama. I only have one problem. you know who you are, you make me sad then happy and then laugh, but why don't i love you. i just don't understand sometimes. you make me crazy and i wish i could explain what we have but truthfully i don't know. things just need to change. i don't know how but someting feels wrong here. whatever i'm exhausted and need to go to bed. night.